When Sorrows, Like Kidney Stones, Strike

I wasn't nervous at all this morning; after all, this is something I've dealt with since I was eighteen. My husband's guess was 4. My guess was 11.

The tech called us back, brought us into a small room, and told me to lay on my back. As she lifted up my shirt and squirted the warm jelly on my side, I thought, "Here goes nothing."

And what did she find? Seven. Seven kidney stones. Four in my right kidney, and three in my left.

It's not the first time that I've had that many kidney stones, but it is the first time that one has measured "unpassable." When she told me the measurement of the stone, I felt a sinking feeling--not a hopeless, terrified, gut-wrenching feeling. Just a sinking feeling.

Because "unpassable" means one thing: a procedure.

I'm scared. I'm scared for what the next few months might hold. I'm hoping nothing but e.a.s.y. :)

So, I'm drinking lots of water (I drank my 8 glasses today!), and staying away from. . . oh, if you knew everything I had to stay away from, it would make your head spin. Needless to say, I was not happy that at my sister's 23rd birthday party tonight, I could not have a piece of chocolate cake. Come on, you know how hard that was for me. :)

I went out on the porch swing tonight, because I felt God pulling me out there. I told Him how I felt and expressed my fears. And I just couldn't get this hymn out of my head. . .

When peace, like a river, attendeth my way,
When sorrows, like sea billows, roll;
Whatever my lot, thou hast taught me to say,
It is well, it is well with my soul,
It is well with my soul,
It is well, it is well with my soul.

This isn't big--at all. In the scheme of things, this is very, very small (literally, ha!). And I want to keep reminding myself of that. It might not be well with my kidneys, but God's in control, and that is well with my soul. :)